Am I Living A Picturesque Life?

Who am I posing for?

“lightning at night time” by Duncan Maloney on Unsplash

The lightning is blue across a dark metallic sky, coming fast amidst the pelting rain and thunder clapps, rolling and rumbling, a concert of accolades celebrating the hot August night. I drive through it like I am an extra in a scene. My mind goes way back to a time when “Bluedot” flashcubes were atop Kodak Instamatic cameras (dating myself now). I feel like I am being photographed all the way home. Just the imagination makes me aware of my demeanor, my thoughts, my poise, even though it is late and I am alone. The streetlights emit molten gold as I pass by.

Photo by Louis Hansel on Unsplash

I wonder if that is one factor in social media’s addictive lure. This summer I find myself stopping at the ocean pictures and podcasts more than usual. It has been over a year since I’ve been to one and I don’t see it happening any time soon. It is not the ocean alone I miss, but the people associated with it.

The need to be photographed as well as the need to see photographs are closely integrated. Lonliness lies beyond even the soul. As a Christian, Christ indwells and has redeemed and satisfied my soul. So why is it that some Christians are among the lonliest people? If my soul is complete, should I not all be complete?

Aha! Hope! It transcends even the soul.

Without hope even a redeemed soul is a prison cell.

Without hope, fear will surround all of your potential and creativity and suffocate the life you live on this earth.

Without hope, your destiny is full, but your testimony is empty.

Without hope, you always have words inside, but do not risk letting them out.

So, how do we transcend from despair and discouragement to hope. It doesn’t say how. It just tells me to do it. The Psalmist says to hope in God. I think it is a change of mind. I am thinking one way; it is a definite act of will and intention to change my thinking. It doesn’t matter if it makes sense to my friends, my family or even myself. The promise is:

I am not alone, ever! I am being watched by many unseen entities.

I am surrounded on all sides, every moment of every day, in light and in dark. What do they see when they look at me? Is my picture being taken? Am I posing well? Am I content? Am I being faithful? Am I seeking what is the next step I am to take? Am I taking the next step He has instructed? Am I standing still? I repeat, am I content?

I am on camera. In front of the lights. I am the main character, not the extra. I am seen. What will I do?

Born twice, I die daily. Serious about Jesus. What I write you may not want to read. Okay. I write what I believe and what I learn from others, just like you.